day i’m-not-even-sure-anymore/365.

so…

i’m admitting defeat!

a while ago i started a section of my blog called why 365? as a challenge to myself to take a post a photography every day. this has thoroughly kicked my butt by day 90 and i’ve failed miserably. i’ve realized that, although there are people way busier than i am posting 365 blogs, i’m just too busy. there’s a lot to running a full time business and, when i’m not shooting weddings or having weekend or evening shoots, i like to limit my “work” hours from 9-5.

i respond to urgent e-mails or calls after 5, but other than that, i put it all aside to wait til tomorrow morning. this allows me the evening to relax and not run around doing business-y things while my fiancé sits around and watches sports center by himself. however, i’ve found with the 365 blog that i constantly put it off because there are other more urgent matters to usually be dealt with during 9-5…so i’m still running around, taking pictures, uploading them, editing them, and blogging about them at night…and i’m just not cool with it. i’d like to see my boy…and my cats.

so, this is the end of the 365 blog. kudos to those of you who also have full time businesses or jobs and do this! i can’t stand the feeling that i have to do something immediately that i don’t really have to do…like blog. :)

HOWEVER! i am still going to try to blog every day…but not calling it “365” and relabeling it “personal” allows me to miss a day or two and not feel like i’m missing a dire deadline. :)

so don’t worry, i’ll still be here! every day! mostly! except when i have way too much to do! then i’ll only see you every other day or so!

it’s not you, 365…it’s me.

xo.

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in other news, a pretty killer storm cloud hovering over geoff’s soon-to-be-rain-delayed baseball game yesterday.

stormtaken with the droid.

day 89/365: teaching

i took a few weeks off before the weddings start to pile on next weekend. i’m a very organized person and deem it completely necessary to get one’s life in order before embarking on several weeks of busy madness. in order to prepare, i caught up on all of my photography bookkeeping, ordering, etc. my computer is in for a tune-up, fixed my contact prescription, and finally…decided to clean out my closet.

cleaning out my closet isn’t an easy feat. geoff and i have a closet in our bedroom, but i found when we moved in that i had too many clothes. we couldn’t fit both of our clothes in one closet, so i’m using the closet in my office for my clothes. :) i was a teacher then and, as all teachers know, we have a lot of stuff. tons of stuff. and we’re the worst when it comes to throwing anything away because we’re totally of the mindset, “maybe i can use this someday! maybe someday i’ll get moved to 4th grade and this will be relevant. maybe someday i’ll get moved to preschool and this will be relevant. maybe…maybe!” and so you just keep it. you keep everything.

so after i quit teaching, i wasn’t sure what to do with all of my stuff. at that point i was doing photography on the side as a hobby and the idea had just formed to try and make it into a business. but i had spent most of my high school and college life with several artsy hobbies, but always thinking i’d end up a teacher. well i loved the kids i taught, but i hated teaching…and realized that what i wanted most of all was my own business. but i still couldn’t get rid of the stuff…because i’m still always like, “maybe someday i’ll need it!!!”

so two years later, i’m stuck with a giant 12lb box of clay, big laminated stop signs with arrows that signify how loud your voice should be at any given moment, and lots and lots of clipboards…all sitting in the closet.

thankfully, my friend kate just got a teaching job and this gave me the perfect opportunity to give her stuff!! i threw a lot of it away because it wouldn’t be useful anymore to anyone, and i gave her a box of stuff that i thought she might be able to use (someday!) if not now.

it is so, so hard throwing stuff away for me. i always do it – but usually 3 years or so after it needed to be done. because really…now that i’m a full-time wedding photographer, there just isn’t a need for “what punctuation do you need?” signs.

teacher signs

why 365?